UNWANTED

i am literally crying right naw. it just hurts too much..i am totally unwanted. inappreciatively ignored. i rase sedih. i just sometimes breakdown n cry, n i havent cried in quite awhile. nobody gets me.nobody understands me. i try so hard not to cry, because i dont want other people to think of me as someone who cant live without attention, love n moral support all the time. but the fact is, i do. i am just like every other human being in this world. i pun nak someone to be there for me when i really need someone to talk to, or to share my problems with.. if i nanges sket je..nanti orng ingat im not tough enuf to face this world or something. if i nanges sket je, people akan ingat i ni melebih2 or watever.all they think is i nanges for something completely remeh n stupid. but life is soo unfair. everyone deserves to be happy. sume orng tak tau what im going tru n stuff. i depend totally on NOTHING. its something i shud be proud of, but i have feelings too u noe..sometimes i tgk orng lain..they have family members to talk to. bf/gfs to talk to all the time. n friends who wud be there regardless of anything else. regardless of anything else. i just feel sad..sometimes, people will ignore me when im soo sad n down for something really stupid..they wud rather do something else just to let me down even more..i might sound okay..but i try really hard to avoid making everyone so worried about me. its just sad u noe. i just cant take it anymore. i hate crying. it makes me feel weak..but what can i do, its only normal to feel this way.. i rase macam i have nobody. nobody at all.. all those promises. just simpan baik2 je la k.. jangan la bwat janji yang u x boleh tepati. gave me alot of hope but not really into it..i just want to end this. maybe i should go to australia/UK after all..xde sape pun yang hargai i kat sini.  i hate crying ;-((