Duchess FSZ

Duchess FSZ
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Friday, July 23, 2010

Ive got a feeling

It has been quite a while since i had the time to write. or maybe just because ive been extremely happy recently that i dont need this blog to counter my depression. haha.. anyway, really, i am happy. im gonna share with u all what has been keeping my face glow all the time and how optimistic i have become. n how i embrace everything thats been thrown at me (either good or bad). My view n perspective on life has totally change, and for once, i will admit, that i do feel a notch mature.

Love.

I dont know about other people out there, but id like to share with u how it feels to have finally found the one. At the beginning of ur acquaintancy, have u ever thot of the person as just a friend, but somehow u keep on smiling whenever u think of him/her? u dont noe the person too well, but smehow rather u can sense that the person is special, but u dont no in terms of what yet. n when u do fall in love, u can never tell if the person is the right one for u or not. no one does. its God's will. but we as human can actually get hints from the Almighty..Have u ever felt like u are soo comfortable with that person, that u can tell him/her anything without even a second hesitating? like it comes so naturally u sometimes look at the person as ur bestfriend, rather than ur lover? have u ever felt that its not always bout the mushy wooshy things u do with him/her, its not always about sex. sometimes, u just enjoy the person's companionship, n spending an evening walking tru the midst of people in the busy heart of KL seems to torch a light in ur heart n trigger a smile on ur face. have u ever felt that everything is going to be okay because u have each other? that he/she will always be there for u wherever or whenever, n vice-versa? Have u ever felt that u dont depend fully on that person, only that u noe u will help each other tru no matter what. Most importantly, when uve found the right person, u will noe by heart, that he/she's the one. because u dont really care bout his or her flaws. u wudnt mind if he/she stinks a little, or laugh hysterically every single time. or doesnt share the same race with u. or watever. at the beginning of a relationship, EVERYONE wud care. but nobody's perfect. u will love that person head-to-toe if he/she's the one. n u will noe it. n its only u. no one else. i have byright found the one. 3 years ago. it took me 3 years to actually realise that i do love him with all my heart n that everything will be okay if we go tru it together.=) i love him more n more as each day passes by n i do look at him as my bestfriend n not only a lover. we come from a different background n lifestyle. but so far, so good. like i said, everything will be okay if u guys go tru it together. always. n before i move on to my next topic, i wud just like to add that, declaring ur relationship DOES MAKE A DIFFERENCE. believe me. it does. u might see it as just a title or whatsoever, but ur perspective on the idea of being in a relationship, ur respect for ur partner, ur intensity of love is so much greater. aaah...just talking about love makes my day A-okay. its not as easy as it may seem, but its totallly worth it.

Career.

Since i was a little girl, my mum has always wanted me to become a doctor. so i had that 'dream' of becoming a doctor untill reality hit me.i was 16 years old then..i thought to myself, that NO WAY i wud study for soo long just be a doctor. i wud never get married! i knew that there were alot of other opportunities of work n the broadness of the area, but i was so young at that time n i didnt have a clue at all. n this dilemma i had did not stop when i was at the age of 18. no no..it stopped on the day i finished my college. aha, seriously. when i finished my studies in genetics over at UKM, that was about 4 months ago, n on the day i finished my last paper, which was i dont-noe-what. (haha) , i still didnt noe what i wanted out of this life. so i decided to elongate the time for me to make up my mind, so i applied for a short semester n took sommore boring subject to fullfill my free time. haha. seriously..then during my short semester, i had trouble sleeping. because, i cudnt think of wat i wanted to do after graduation. i had a pretty bad time handling my insomnia. then at one night, when i wasnt thinking of my career dilemma, i started to think of the movies that i have recently watched.  i was lying on my side, hugging my bantal busuk..n suddenly this vague image of a pretty, sexy girl from a movie came into my mind. GOSH, i love that movie. but i cudnt remember the title. she was wearing this red sexy dress n was leaning on her superbly beautiful sportscar infront of a mansion. she was there for a purpose. she was about to sell the mansion to this hunky to-die-for guy who was interested in buying the property. so she was there to show the guy around the house. n i think the house was 5 million dollars or so. when that line of images came into my head, i suddenly smiled to myself. i always had that thot that i cud sell houses like that lady. i enjoy meeting new people n showing them around pretty houses. n actually selling them.. the personality totally clicked with mine. n then that was the moment that changed my life forever. the next morning after i woke up, i straight-away open up my laptop n browse tru what was called, real-estate. and so naw my dilemma is over. after finishing my education period,worth 16 years, i have finally found my dream job, that has nothing to do with my degree. but thats okay. after going to the R.E courses n training, i have never adore the business of real estate more in my entire life. all my batch mates n principals say that they see the potential in me n that its good that i have this awareness when im still soo young n they are also pretty sure that i will succeed like the lady in my dreams. hehe. i cudnt help but telling them about the lady in red. i somehow have a very strong feeling that i am made for this business. my personality totally clicks with what is required. and also, i have found the perfect place to start working this august. n i cant wait to start working too!! how many people in this world can actually work, doing wat they LOVE to do, n not because they are forced to?? how many people in this world can actually live their dream jobs? i am so glad that i am one of them ;-) im so grateful that i am free from this dilemma.

There are alot of other things that i wud like to share with u guys, but since there are too many, maybe ill slip in 1 or 2 the next time.hehe. i have this new idea of helping everyone to be n feel more optimistic. we have to believe that things will get better, because sometimes, when we believe so, we tend to act more mature n handle our problems better. n somehow, all the efforts will finally start to fruit u noe? just keep on believing, it might come true. ;)

BTW, i am on the way on creating 2 more blogs, one is a joint-venture between me n my pali. n the other blog is where i am going to advertise all type of houses for sale/rent, and every details about it. if u guys have any enquiries, please feel free to acknowledge me yeah.