Sssshhhhhhhhh...im at my office. i just finished all my work and i have an hour left before i can leave, and facebook has been seriously boring, even my favourite handbag website didnt amuse me either. something is wrong with me. i NEVER. and i mean EVER feel bored loooking at handbags. Maybe im stressed out. I realllllly want a perfect birthday present or treat for my bucuk bucuk. and its so stressful! why is it so hard to find a perfect gift for men? im sure tag-hoyay will be a superb birthday gift, but im too stingy and 5k for a watch is just ... zzzzZzzzz.. sorry im seriously not a fan of watches. i did found acouple of interesting Tag watches, in the Monaco range. but when the salesperson was explaining the exquisiteness of the watch, all i saw in his eyes were Balenciaga handbags. So i guess ill find something else. hi hi. actually i DID found something else. but im not gonna spill it here. ngeh heh heh. he'll be soo happy.. ;8) i just cant wait to surprise him and see that oh soooo mngade look on his face. ngeee... he has been complaining alot about how he wants a *tut* and how he needs a *tut* okay i know im not helping u understand this at all but sweat not my lovely friends, as i promise ill spill the beans once we've celebrated his birthday.
Soooo, he'll be turning 25 this year...awww...oh so tua. hahahaha. aih..i love him so much, he's so much mature now, sometimes i feel like a child! seriously, i dah la sangat mengada2, its like a dad-daughter relationship. euw. i did not just say that. i mean he truely cares for me like a man! hehe, idk how to say it, maybe u love birds out there will understand. anybody who has experienced true love wud understand ;) when u are accepted for who u are and he loves you no matter what eventho u have flaws, and mengada2! :8) this year god has been so nice to me. i can finally see a glimpse of my future, bright bright future! *insyaAllah*. because im gifted in such a way that i met sooo many successful people lately and insyaAllah, ill thrive to be one of those lucky ones driving behind BMWs and Audi's and lets not forget my one and only fairlady! success is what u choose and work hard for. it never comes just like that. im working towards that direction, and dear god, i hope next year will be even better! * i promise i will stop buying expensive handbags* :p ciao, its 5.30pm! :8))))
Monday, September 12, 2011
Tuesday, February 22, 2011
dedicated to the heavy ones
Dear bloggers, usually when i write and post an entry, i would never really go and check on it again. but recently, i read all my posts, and they were kind of...spiritual. huhu. most of u must think that i hate god and have a sad depressing life. but believe me, i know better to never stop believing in GOD, and to tell u the truth, bila i sedih je i will blog. so thats how u get all the depressing entries on my page. hahaha. So, as i just mentioned, i am quite sad right now. haha, if not i wouldnt be typing on this goddamn laptop. but i guess, its not a major problem la. just, ive been quite tired lately thats all. and i have this really huggggeeee fear, like seriously. of becoming FAT. i know some people who used to be so goddamn skinny even a bird would get confuse and starts to land on their shoulders. and after 5 years, boom! they expand like a hot air balloon. sometimes, i just wonder...like what the hell happened to u man? what did ur parents force u to eat or something? because, its only logic that someone gains weight due to an OVERDOSE of calorie and lack of exercise. (thank god im a sportswoman). and on the other hand, some of the fat people whom ive known since i was small, phiiuh! alamak. like supermodel la. seriously. owh that one i know for freaking sure why. exercise and diet and the strict control of food consumption.
as for me. i can say that im quite proud of my body (e cheh ;-)) haha i mean, since i was 15 or so, my body weight seems to be constant, i never really gain any weight, nor lose any. i guess i am not skinny, and im not fat. im kind of in the middle. (OH SO PROUD) most people hate their bodies. i assume i speak for everyone when i say that its true. people are never really satisfied with anything, let alone how our appearances are like. tho actually i used to be partially anorexic when i was in my teenage-hood. maybe 18-19. seriously, i remember what i used to eat everyday. salad, salad, and salad. i would count every single calorie that i took per day. and i never exceeded 600kcal/day. hahaha. even gula2 pun i would count u know. and if i didnt know how much calorie it was, i would just put a rough reasonable figure and add it to my daily list. THAT BAD. seriously..and i think i weighed about 42kg. hehe. and now i am 45. hahaha. i know. not that much difference.but u know, if i weigh 43 and below, i am underweight? ;-) haaa....so there u go. i am 45 kg, and im proud to say that eventho raya storms in and out every single year, i can still have control and manage to lose weight until it reaches 45 again. usually ill gain 2 to 3 kg during raya. sometimes, i NEVER gain any kg AT ALL! even if i stuff my face with 2000kcal worth of rendang lemang, lontong and kuih muih, 3 days in a row.
i guess, there are 3 factors that contribute to this agenda. or miracle. or magic. or whatever u call it.
A) metabolism - im sorry, if u are born with a low, not-so-active metabolism , then.. i guess i have no advice for u. huhu. im sorry. i just know that u can improve ur met rate by exercising. and smoking is bad for ur health! :P
B) Exercise! (my personal fav) - okay so do what ever sports u want, it cud be anything, as long as u sweat for 30 minutes a day, ull be fine man. even naik turun tangga is considered exercise tau. but dont get me wrong. it doesnt mean if u play badminton, or clean the house, or whatever, ull get skinny and toned. u need a specific exercise routine for shaping that certain part of ur body. for instance, u have wobbbly ugly thighs full of cellulites. my advice? JOG WOMAN! dont just eat saltines with dip infront of the tv. get up and run or something. do laps, skipping or even aerobics. work? busy?tired? then dont complain ur FAT! most people do not take exercise as something important. they just feel like they are oh so busy with the corporate world and whatsoever. the key is TO MAKE TIME FOR EXERCISE. if u finish work at 6, then stop. why are u still writing and konon2 rajin infront of ur boss? if ur sick, ur boss is gonna fire u anyway. maybe even the insurance company will return all ur savings and cancel ur policy. dont think that ur young. you can do whatever u want (im advising myself actually, since i have been slacking off quite a bit) what? u think in 20 years, ull still look pretty and sexy? and those wobbly thighs are still adorable to ur man? dream on! wobbly thighs are ugly. but wrinkled, vein-bursting, cellulite-clad wobbly thighs? A pure disgrace. and people, its not only because of how u look like. its for ur own health. u are not getting younger people. so please. just becoz ur a ranting. celluliteless, oh so gorgeous, it doesnt mean ur healthy and u can skip exercise anytime. yang gemok tu. ha paham2 la sendiri.
3) Food selection.
-when u go to a mall, what comes first to ur mind? it wud be handbags, if ur asking me. :) hey lari topik! okay, about food. oh first thing pergi KLCC, Pizza. fast food. nasi bryani. bla bla bla. u know how much calorie a plate of ns bryani contains? hahaha. now ur scared is it? i found this really cool website that has this database of food together with its calories, check it out a. cekodok.com. so whenever im at a restaurant, before ordering, i would just browse tru the website to give me a rough idea of how fat ill be in the next hour. haha. theres also this website that shows u what type of exercise cuts off the most calories. and how much calories ur supposed to lose- it is different for everyone, a skinny person doesnt have lose that much of calories as a fat person. theres a reason to that. its because the calorie uptake for a skinny person per day is ALSO diff than a fat person. so, skinny people. jangan ingat kau boleh melantak suka hati mak bapak kau je. fatter people get to eat more calories as they need more energy to move that heap of disgracement (ok thats not even a word) pendek kate. i cant eat 2 waffles but my bf can. haha. figure out sendiri la.
but unfortunately i dont have the website and i dont remember either. but im sure u techy techy people shud know la how to google and find out for urselves. so..do u feel better now, or u feel like killing urself? jangan. tak baik.it is true that u shud love urself for who u are. but remember, being fat can lead to alot of diseases. and by not doing anything to avoid that, it means ur a SINNER. berdosa. tuhan marah. sengaja letak diri dalam jeopardi. jeopardy sebenarnye. haha.ok la, cool ape jadi sihat and kurus. orang pun ramai suke. u pun rase confident. orang tak kutuk2 behind ur back.takyah lipat baju besar2. save ruang dlm almari. im mean right? but i dont give a shit la sbb im quite scared myself , hahahahaha. takut la sial jadi gemuk. but i will promise on my grandpa's grave(!!) that i will never turn fat, even after mngandung anak ke 10. i will never forgive myself if i turn fat, and ill carve a D on my forehead with my brother's machete. for Disgrace.
and thats how,
ms angkuh director movie panggil utk berlakon jadi BFF fasha sandha pun tanak,
sees it
;-)
*oh oh and please jangan jadi gile kate merokok boleh kuruskan badan. ajaran sesat adalah DOSA!!
as for me. i can say that im quite proud of my body (e cheh ;-)) haha i mean, since i was 15 or so, my body weight seems to be constant, i never really gain any weight, nor lose any. i guess i am not skinny, and im not fat. im kind of in the middle. (OH SO PROUD) most people hate their bodies. i assume i speak for everyone when i say that its true. people are never really satisfied with anything, let alone how our appearances are like. tho actually i used to be partially anorexic when i was in my teenage-hood. maybe 18-19. seriously, i remember what i used to eat everyday. salad, salad, and salad. i would count every single calorie that i took per day. and i never exceeded 600kcal/day. hahaha. even gula2 pun i would count u know. and if i didnt know how much calorie it was, i would just put a rough reasonable figure and add it to my daily list. THAT BAD. seriously..and i think i weighed about 42kg. hehe. and now i am 45. hahaha. i know. not that much difference.but u know, if i weigh 43 and below, i am underweight? ;-) haaa....so there u go. i am 45 kg, and im proud to say that eventho raya storms in and out every single year, i can still have control and manage to lose weight until it reaches 45 again. usually ill gain 2 to 3 kg during raya. sometimes, i NEVER gain any kg AT ALL! even if i stuff my face with 2000kcal worth of rendang lemang, lontong and kuih muih, 3 days in a row.
i guess, there are 3 factors that contribute to this agenda. or miracle. or magic. or whatever u call it.
A) metabolism - im sorry, if u are born with a low, not-so-active metabolism , then.. i guess i have no advice for u. huhu. im sorry. i just know that u can improve ur met rate by exercising. and smoking is bad for ur health! :P
B) Exercise! (my personal fav) - okay so do what ever sports u want, it cud be anything, as long as u sweat for 30 minutes a day, ull be fine man. even naik turun tangga is considered exercise tau. but dont get me wrong. it doesnt mean if u play badminton, or clean the house, or whatever, ull get skinny and toned. u need a specific exercise routine for shaping that certain part of ur body. for instance, u have wobbbly ugly thighs full of cellulites. my advice? JOG WOMAN! dont just eat saltines with dip infront of the tv. get up and run or something. do laps, skipping or even aerobics. work? busy?tired? then dont complain ur FAT! most people do not take exercise as something important. they just feel like they are oh so busy with the corporate world and whatsoever. the key is TO MAKE TIME FOR EXERCISE. if u finish work at 6, then stop. why are u still writing and konon2 rajin infront of ur boss? if ur sick, ur boss is gonna fire u anyway. maybe even the insurance company will return all ur savings and cancel ur policy. dont think that ur young. you can do whatever u want (im advising myself actually, since i have been slacking off quite a bit) what? u think in 20 years, ull still look pretty and sexy? and those wobbly thighs are still adorable to ur man? dream on! wobbly thighs are ugly. but wrinkled, vein-bursting, cellulite-clad wobbly thighs? A pure disgrace. and people, its not only because of how u look like. its for ur own health. u are not getting younger people. so please. just becoz ur a ranting. celluliteless, oh so gorgeous, it doesnt mean ur healthy and u can skip exercise anytime. yang gemok tu. ha paham2 la sendiri.
3) Food selection.
-when u go to a mall, what comes first to ur mind? it wud be handbags, if ur asking me. :) hey lari topik! okay, about food. oh first thing pergi KLCC, Pizza. fast food. nasi bryani. bla bla bla. u know how much calorie a plate of ns bryani contains? hahaha. now ur scared is it? i found this really cool website that has this database of food together with its calories, check it out a. cekodok.com. so whenever im at a restaurant, before ordering, i would just browse tru the website to give me a rough idea of how fat ill be in the next hour. haha. theres also this website that shows u what type of exercise cuts off the most calories. and how much calories ur supposed to lose- it is different for everyone, a skinny person doesnt have lose that much of calories as a fat person. theres a reason to that. its because the calorie uptake for a skinny person per day is ALSO diff than a fat person. so, skinny people. jangan ingat kau boleh melantak suka hati mak bapak kau je. fatter people get to eat more calories as they need more energy to move that heap of disgracement (ok thats not even a word) pendek kate. i cant eat 2 waffles but my bf can. haha. figure out sendiri la.
but unfortunately i dont have the website and i dont remember either. but im sure u techy techy people shud know la how to google and find out for urselves. so..do u feel better now, or u feel like killing urself? jangan. tak baik.it is true that u shud love urself for who u are. but remember, being fat can lead to alot of diseases. and by not doing anything to avoid that, it means ur a SINNER. berdosa. tuhan marah. sengaja letak diri dalam jeopardi. jeopardy sebenarnye. haha.ok la, cool ape jadi sihat and kurus. orang pun ramai suke. u pun rase confident. orang tak kutuk2 behind ur back.takyah lipat baju besar2. save ruang dlm almari. im mean right? but i dont give a shit la sbb im quite scared myself , hahahahaha. takut la sial jadi gemuk. but i will promise on my grandpa's grave(!!) that i will never turn fat, even after mngandung anak ke 10. i will never forgive myself if i turn fat, and ill carve a D on my forehead with my brother's machete. for Disgrace.
and thats how,
ms angkuh director movie panggil utk berlakon jadi BFF fasha sandha pun tanak,
sees it
;-)
*oh oh and please jangan jadi gile kate merokok boleh kuruskan badan. ajaran sesat adalah DOSA!!
Sunday, January 16, 2011
sorrow
lately ive been thinking. ive been thinking about this incident that happened quite a while ago. I thot that i had already moved on. but it seems that the memories are not as vague as i want them to be. it sucks how you cant turn back time and be a better person that u wanna be. the wounds in my heart are still fresh and bloody. i am still that girl i was 5 years ago. i dont know if i can ever accept someone just the way they are. being closer to god is my next target. i have been reading this blog about all the details important in my religion-Islam. I feel that it fulfills my day , somehow. since i dont really think of that someone anymore. i know, i may not be as religious as other people, but i know deep in my heart, that i still have faith in him.
alot of people have been stepping in and out of my life. i learnt a bit or so from each relationship i had. but i am mostly regretful of the one relationship i wish i could fix and mend. only that its fractured and slowly slipping away. i feel so sad in my heart that i cry sometimes just thinking of it. i wish i could understand the dynamics of human behavior. i do not understand it, and it has caused a number of hurtful incidents. i am so sorry for not being the most perfect person on earth and i hope my absence will make u feel better and help u to be a better person.
Love always,
Farah.
alot of people have been stepping in and out of my life. i learnt a bit or so from each relationship i had. but i am mostly regretful of the one relationship i wish i could fix and mend. only that its fractured and slowly slipping away. i feel so sad in my heart that i cry sometimes just thinking of it. i wish i could understand the dynamics of human behavior. i do not understand it, and it has caused a number of hurtful incidents. i am so sorry for not being the most perfect person on earth and i hope my absence will make u feel better and help u to be a better person.
Love always,
Farah.
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