craving for maggi mee..

i want maggi mee!!!! i was supposed to eat it yesterday..i went to visit Z cause he was sick. and i NOE that i kept one maggi mee dlm cawan tu kat umah die. n it was gone! and he had the guts to say that his workers dh makan dulu...heheh. just kidding...aloh...i can buy maggi mee tomorrow.. laksa or tomyam? sluurrrpp! i feeel like eating it naw but its like 4.30 in d morning n im so lazy to get up from my bed and eat..maybe i should have it for lunch tmrw. ngeh heh..i remembered when i was small, my dad would make maggi mee for me and my brother in a huge periuk where he'd put all sorts of stuff in it.. onion lah, daun ape nth..and egg..and my dad is not really a big fan of kuah so our maggi were always like mee goreng instead. haha..man, i LOVE my maggi to have lotsa kuah yang boleh dihirup...(tgh bayangkan jap).. owh yeah.. and then dengan telur goreng kan..sometimes kalau i rajin, dengan nugget nugget skali i msk. walla-wey! imagine this..ur sitting in ur living room next to a sliding door and infront of a tv..its raining cats and dogs, and the tiles are really cold and it goes tru up ur spine..ur watching..lets say tom and jerry.. infront of u is a big bowl filled with hot steaming maggi and you have telur goreng and nugget ayam.. and beside you, theres a cup of hot english breakfast jasmine tea and a teapot for refillment. dont you feel perfectly happy? i think its one of those perfect moments if ur starving..ummph uuumph!

but before that..ns lemak ss 16 first! woo-hoo!

If my dad claims im the princess of all princesses, then why arent the birds chirping for me in the morning??

I wont deny this. i DO get everysingle thing that i want. i thot that statement was overstated. but its all tru, from head to toe. from A to Z. from north to south. No kiddin. I mean like, there had to be a way for me to get the most appealing birthday present for my brother. Even if it cost me a million bucks. well, maybe not a million bucks *smirk* and who cares if my BFF gets perfume everysingle time she gets a year older? GOOD people deserve getting the best. including me. im....a nice person. i do charity work..im a member of the WWF.. i donate to blind people (even tho i whine about it rite after)..i feed the ducks and fishes in the pond. i help alot of my friends out..well despite the one incident that caused dear A to b unexpectedly called to the student's adivisor's office.. *didnt do it*  shrug shrug shrug. i think God is somehow punishing me. after all these years of  being a successful heartbreaker, i cant help to say but you really got me on that last realtionship i had with my ex. but i learnt my lesson..well....not really..i became bitchier eversince. and whos fault is that naw? and the truth is..i dont like being the person i am rite naw. i mean, all this is no doubt Fara's true nature. but com'on.. that was in highschool.. i cant date more than 10 people at one go..its a BURDEN!. i can have everysingle thing in the world..but im not happy. my heart is missing something. and i noe what it is..TRUE LOVE..i feel so pathetic typing all this down. but what can i say..God created us so we could embrace each other. Ugh...i can barely hear myself talking rite naw. if it were useless junkies that  can be thrown away like tissue papers, it would be fine. my job  would be so much easier. but all of them are so nice and total gentlemen. This love triangle. mmm wait.. this love octagon-le is just a big lump of superglue and its making my hair all sticky and it hurts! all i need is a BIG HUGE scissor to cut every strand of my hair that is pulling what is left of me! you wouldnt undertsand. U readers will never understand. its hard being me. My bestfriend is drama. and its not even a living thing. i cant avoid drama. drama is smothered allover me.maybe its even written on my forehead. *sigh* i never like creating drama. but somehow, im a magnet to it. and i noe, before its too late..i have to save myself from this mess. i need to make the right decision. i can either pick one, or pick none.

Truth is: i think i already did. i actually have feelings for someone. but its not UR time yet to noe.
-xoxo-